the decision

this is a story a child;a child who was brought into this world by two parents,but grew up with the love of only one.

this child grew up with a completely different view of the world.granted,he participated in the normal childhood activites:crying,laughing,playing and fighting with his friends,but he felt different

he always had a feeling that his family was different.he asked himself many questions,came up with varying answers,but none seemed to be the right one.

he was confused.he was bewildered.he sank into himself,alone,in unfathomable darkness.the outside world only saw what they expected;a man.on the inside he was crying,but he had to portray the perfect image that society wanted to see.

the child matured,but the fears did not disappear.he was handsome,and everybody loved him,moreso the girls.but he was still empty on the inside.

he feared the future and what it might bring.how would he deal with new situations and challenges?would he emerge victorious? was he strong enough?

then one day,the future finally arrived,but it had overtones of the past that he wanted to forget.a past that still gave him nightmares.a painful past.

on that day,someone came calling at their home.since the young man always looked at himself in the mirror,one thing struck him immediately;he closely resembled this man.the realisation hit him like train on full speed.

the visitor moved forward as if to hug him,but the young man moved back a few steps.the visitor said softly,'my son'.

hate welled inside the young man's heart.then he felt a hand on his shoulder,turned and looked into his mom's eyes.there he saw the struggle,the tears,the pain that she had gone through bringing him up.then he saw the love in lighting her face.

he then looked  at the stranger.there he saw what he never had and would never need.

he made a decision there and then.